Case Study Series

When did you notice you first started to become different? You started to act strange. Or in a way, people were no longer able to recognize you. And you no longer were able to recognize yourself for the crazy way you would react. Plus the crazy things you would say, or do. That eventually impeded your life, your character, and eventually your mindset. See, that’s the thing about craziness or confusion, it is tied to pain. A lot of times, it’s difficult to sit back and trace the origins of when you first started to become numb to it. Sometimes, it's difficult to even just feel your triggers again. And having the sensation of a part of the brain or body that we have ignored for so long, finally come to life again. This usually causes pain if we have unhealed the trauma or if we are changing our neural networks to create new connections ( source). That’s what my neuroplasticity case study on myself taught me. As part of a larger research for my wellness business, King of Intensity LLC. In order to see if you can heal (whole state of body, mind, and soul) all or most of the trauma you have faced through your life, then you can live a conscious life working on your best and living your best life based on meaning.

This case study is the first in a series of case studies, as a preset to my first Business research. Which is about the problem my business addresses. A lack of medical providers, ie physicians, nurses, and more. We are looking at, a solution for the people to develop the autonomy to take care of their own health. Through chronic education, wellness resources, and connection to experts, specialists, and other healthcare providers. Due to that, this text talks about my journey with psychosis. As a way to show people the authentic truth of my experience and what happened to me as real and a part of my life that grew my level of consciousness in the world.

As I developed true confidence, trust in myself, love, understanding, empathy, and more emotions and values that lead me to start living a conscious life based on my values. A life of contributing something to my environment. And a style where I have grit through life in order to respond rather than react as I balance out to my rhythm of a healthy lifestyle. At the same time, going through my pain to reclaim myself. Pain changes us. That is a fact. However, the way pain changes us is what a lot of us are too scared to look at. Why is the way a person changes so important you may ask? Because you develop a certain set fixed pattern way of reacting or behaving that becomes a part of your character or personality and so, the only way to address this is to be aware of this point of pain and its origins.

To look back and reflect. To reflect and truly see the type of person we have become versus who we used to be in order to see our growth, our evolution, and see just what exactly we are still holding onto that is not benefitting or assisting in our growth for the long run. And that’s the beauty of pain. It can be ugly, but when you start to make conscious of what used to be ignored and what used to be unconscious, we then can begin to see that our pain essentially are lessons that are meant to teach us that we need to heal in order to grow a certain aspect of ourselves, so that we may be balanced when we stand in our full glory in a consistent manner.

Pain is the path towards a recollection of recognizing who you are, what you can do, and where you need to let go. Because pain can define us, but it can also free us when we finally are able to let it go and not use it as a reflection of our character because hurt people hurt people. Not the hurt itself actually hurting people. And when we start to change and look at the perspective of how the hurt has hurt us. We can then begin to look at efficient ways in which to heal this hurt so that we may regain our wholeness, be able to flow freely as energetic beings and live a life of awareness to how our behaviors impact not only ourselves but also our environment.

So that way we can live a conscious life based on meaning. Or what is called Values in the West? So my journey towards retaining wholeness and achieving balance with a rhythmic consistency started off in college. And it is a journey that is still in progress, yet I have come a long way. It will be over when I can let go of the story I tell myself and live my life, seeing my trauma as a part of my story toward discovering my “self” as that is the way of each human’s life—just done in varying perspectives with different circumstances.